My self-imposed
exile and isolation on the edge of civilization has been difficult, but the
main reason I was missing city life is the forfeiture of entertainment venues I
had come to enjoy. Giving up toxic
activities was a requirement and moving away also helped removed the
temptation. Initially, I resented having to deny myself these simple pleasures so many take for granted and I wondered if the
improvement in health was worth sacrificing my soul. I began searching for non-toxic or less toxic entertainment
options that would fulfill my need for fun so I wouldn't feel like such a
martyr.

After years
of failed group entertainment experimentation, I've learned to enjoy my own
company. The stress and frustration was too exhausting. Making the adjustment
from being a social butterfly to an antisocial recluse took about two years and
during that period I thought I'd go stir crazy! After a while it was just easier
to be alone or with one other person who I could trust to be unscented and safe.
There are times I still wish I could participate in group events, but for the
most part, I prefer the solitude. I like the quiet, lack of drama and lack of
stress. Mix chemical sensitivity with people and there is always drama and
stress!
Entertainment and activities I can't do anymore:
parties
dinner parties
fancy restaurants
concerts
nightclubs
bars
theater
air travel
girl shopping
city walking
art
family gatherings
holiday dinners
reunions
weddings
conferences
outdoor activities
restaurants
art
cooking/baking
sewing
gardening
museums
computer fun
DVDs
reading
road trips
I'll discuss some of the larger entertainment categories in the next few posts. As usual, every person with MCS has a different story to tell with a variety of experiences and different levels of sensitivities. There are activities I can enjoy that won't be possible for others, and there are things I like to do that others wouldn't consider fun at all!
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