Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Road Trip to Snowflake

Besides scouting for a new place to live, this is the first vacation I've taken in five years. Why, you ask? Once a chemically sensitive person loses everything or gets very close to losing everything: health, home, security, confidence, money has a whole new value. I know I can lose everything again tomorrow so when given the choice of making money or taking time off which means no money, I most often opt for money. Someone recently called this the PTSD of MCS.

Many times, right up to the hour I was supposed to leave, I hesitated and had second thoughts. Finding a babysitter for Peter was a major step toward liberation. When that happened, I threw all caution to the wind and chanted repeatedly, "I need a vacation. I deserve this. Everything will be fine. This will move the plan forward rather than confine me to stagnation."

I had hoped to write posts from the road and present my experiences as a travel log for everyone to follow, but BlogSpot gave me nothing but hassle. First, it didn't like I was signing in remotely. I appreciate the security, but they need to make it more user-friendly. Once I jumped the security hoops for some reason it wouldn't allow me to create a new post. I'm baffled. Oh well. I kept a written journal and will break it into three long posts: "Road Trip to Snowflake", "I'm in Snowflake!", and "Home Bound from Snowflake".
 
 
The All-Purpose Vehicle
I’ve transformed my van into a camper. The top mattress of my twin bed serves as my bed and is luxuriously outfitted it with flannel sheets, a wool blanket, a comforter, and to top it off, a sleeping bag. With a fluffy pillow, it’s like sleeping at home. I’ve also brought a below-freezing sleeping bag (just in case), a lantern (for reading), a bucket (if needed), a tent (if required) and a pee bucket with toilet paper. For privacy I hang dark green sheets over the side and back windows, sun shields for the front window, and for ventilation I bought screening, the kind one uses for door screens that I can hang from the doors and leave the windows open. It’s not perfect, but keeps the bugs from coming in.
 
View of front at night
 

View of back at night
On top of all this I’ve filled the van with other amenities: cooler with food, plastic bag for garbage, suitcase with clothes, shoes, coats, water supply, health and beauty aids tucked into the cup holders in back, music tapes, maps and notebooks of information, and audio books. I realize now, too late, my error was getting audio CDs instead of tapes so those are useless. I wasn’t thinking. I love my van. It can take me anywhere and is now a totally self-sufficient camper. I love my van. Did I say that already?


Pee bucket and toilet paper at the back corner
 
I should talk about the pee bucket. You’ll probably think this is gross. Yeah, well, some say camping is gross, too. Going without a shower or bath for a week straight is anything but pretty. J I always need to pee in the middle of the night especially if it’s cold. I have no desire to get out of my van in the middle of nowhere half asleep, surrounded by hungry animals and unpredictable humans, walk a great distance to use facilities that are incredibly cold and not always well-maintained. I can pee in my bucket, close the lid, dump it in the morning if there is a restroom or down the toilet at the nearest rest stop. For free camping in the backwoods with no facilities, this allows me the option of camping primitively without polluting the environment with my human waste. Using the restrooms of fancy campgrounds is always a risk since they may be scented or filled with stinky people and their toxic beauty products. The pee bucket works great. Being this self-sufficient allows me the choice of where I can camp. My greatest fear is I drive over a bump and it sloshes or spills all over the van. Eeewww. It's never happened yet. Thank goodness!

After a day or two on the road, everything has a place so I always know where my supplies are and I can find them even in the dark. For security after I put up all the privacy partitions, I always keep my keys in one place so I can find them quickly, I know where the flashlight is, and I can grab my knife in an instant.

Day One: The Adventure Begins!

Miles: 725
Time:  13.5 hours
Temperature Range: 73/32
Butt Pain Level: High
Roadkill: Hwy 84 East = deer, Hwy 26 = cats

“I’m on vacation, I’m on vacation, I am so grateful, I’m on vacation”

I sang that every now and then, most often in between the Jason Mraz songs I played in my tape player. I had a hard time believing I was on vacation!

At 250 miles around eastern Oregon I noticed I could breathe for the first time in a long time. At 370 miles, my sinuses, neck, ears, and head started popping and draining. Shortly after I started getting sharp pin-pricks of pain and all seemed cleared. I nearly cried and thought, “I don’t want to go back home! Ever!”

Boise, Idaho
Once away from the coast the green disappears and all landscape turns various shades of brown. About 60 miles west of Boise, Idaho I noticed everything was beige. It took me a minute before I realized the horrible truth of my observation: even the clouds were beige. Hmmm…in the distance there was a brown haze all over everything. Is it dust from harvesting? Chemicals or pesticides from all the commercial agriculture. Smoke from a forest fire? With in fifteen minutes I had my answer…my sinuses started plugging back up, my neck and ears became congested and my lungs hurt. Then the headaches started. Smoke would cause headache and a bit of lung discomfort, but this was worse. Besides, there wasn’t any smell of smoke. Poisonous air. It cleared a little once I got into Boise, but I couldn’t wait to leave. I remember my last trip near Boise during the summer months at the height of pesticide use. The outskirts of town with all the agriculture looked toxic. I didn’t even stop to see the city.

I did stop this time. City air seemed a little cleaner and the skyline was slightly hazy but not as bad as the outskirts. The neighborhoods of Boise were really adorable with little craftsmen-style houses. I found the Boise Food Coop which was wonderful then high-tailed it out of town. On the way out I passed a superb Whole Foods but it was already getting dark and I had yet to find a campground for the night.

Campgrounds
Campgrounds are a problem for those of us with chemical sensitivities for any number of reasons. Those issues include campfire smoke, scented restrooms, neighbor stink (perfumes, bug sprays, shampoos, etc.), and exhaust from idling vehicles. I try to find remote, primitive, undesignated, or dispersed sites. These are campgrounds without any kind of facilities, unmarked nor advertised by signs, often on BLM (Bureau of Land Management) land, and FREE! They are well-kept secrets although there is some information on their location online at www.freecampsites.net/usa/ and some at the BLM website.  It’s a first come, first serve system and everyone is expected to take their garbage with them as well as have some kind of system for waste and waste removal. I have found the campsites are usually obvious and designated with a place for a campfire with stones or burnt logs, but I think if you get way up into the backcountry this might not be the case. Most of these sites aren’t big enough for a trailer or RV. Although you might be able to find enough online information on a campground to guide you there, most information is from other campers on route, information centers, and even local RV campground personnel who know of free alternatives.

Besides lack of facilities, the only negative is the seclusion and possible lack of security. Sometimes you are the only person there and for a single, female this can be disconcerting to say the least. I lock myself in my van with coverings on the windows. My keys are always kept in the cup holder where I can find them fast, my shoes ready, my knife handy, and I have really good hearing. At any sign of trouble, I’d be outta there in a flash.

The benefits of this seclusion are less people which means less stink and that includes campfire smoke. The campsites at these primitive locations are usually spaced far apart as well.

In a pinch, due to poor planning or as part of the plan, I will go to a state park or RV campgrounds. They are expensive, anywhere from $12 to $38 depending on the facilities, and they are often crowded depending on the time of year. This trip is during the fall which is considered off-season, but there is no off-season for RVers who live in their RV full-time. Again, most primitive campgrounds can’t accommodate large trailers or RVs. Hooray! The advantages of these fancy campgrounds is they do have facilities such as restrooms and at the “resorts” they might even have wi-fi, showers, laundry and swimming pools. When one needs a shower after a week of camping, you can always find an RV resort. If you are on the road for a long period of time, I'm sure that laundry would be god-sent.

The first night I had a choice between a nearly-free campground in Gooding, Idaho ($5) or one someone told me about in Glenns Ferry, Idaho. I decided whichever sign I saw first, that’s where I’d check. Unfortunately the first sign was Glenns Ferry, 72 miles south of Boise and it was pitch black dark when I arrived. The air in Glenns Ferry smelled like a forest fire so I worried. I found the campground at Three Island Crossing. They have around 80 sites, but more than half of them were closed for off-season and the rest of the sites were full. Still, the smoke smell was strong and most of the campers had fires going. I was pretty sure I had already passed my Gooding option so I thought I’d head to Twin Falls to find a hotel. Unfortunately it was already 9pm and my options were running out. Hotels/motels worry me. Would they be clean enough? If they allow animals or smoking in any of the rooms, I’d have problems. Is this even an option at all? If the room was toxic, I could always sleep in the van in the parking lot as a last resort.


Back on the freeway and ten miles beyond Glenns Ferry I saw the sign for Gooding!! It was located eleven miles off my path along highway 26 and I wasn’t sure if there would be sites left at that hour or if I could find it in the dark of night. There are no street lamps on any of these country roads and I was heading into backwoods country. The adventure begins. I love a good adventure, but usually after it happens.

The directions I got online said to find the fairgrounds and the campgrounds are right next to it. Could I find the fairgrounds? No. By this time it’s 10pm. I stopped in a store and asked. She told me to look for the large sign. Someone else said, go over the railroad tracks and at the bottom of the hill it’s on the left. If I get to the river, I’ve gone too far. I never did see the fairground sign, but I did find the campground. It's a small RV campground used during fair season. $15 for RV hook up, $5 for tent. I paid for a tent but couldn’t see where the tent area was due to lack of lighting. And I’m the only person there. I parked under one of the few lamps and crawled into my very warm bed. Total silence.

Photo taken the next morning
 
At first I was a little nervous. A woman all alone out in the middle of no where camping at a deserted campground at the edge of a redneck town. Great. As I started to panic I thought of all the chemically sensitive people who do this every night. Many of them are single women. I’ve read they say the first night of homeless camping is the hardest. I felt like such a whiner. A very lucky whiner as I still have a place to call home. I relaxed and felt humbled. Then I thought of that single chemically sensitive woman who was camping in her car and murdered at one of the campgrounds. I put that out of my head. I needed to trust my fate.
 
All alone. No one was in that trailer.

The amenities here left little to be desired. The bathrooms are at the fairgrounds about a mile away. There is a shower but there is no way I’d ever strip naked and get into that dark, dingy stall. Eewww!  It reminded me of the restrooms of my nightmares without the fecal matter all over the toilets. There are three train tracks about a block away and at least once an hour between 2am and 7am a train passed complete with whistles. I grew up on a farm with train tracks nearby so I felt right at home, although it didn’t help me sleep. My sinuses were congested all night and in the morning I detected a faint smell of sage. I don’t do well with sage. And this is agriculture country. I conclude Idaho is a cesspool of commercial agricultural poisons. I won’t be living here anytime soon. I left at dawn. The town was beautiful in the morning light.

Day Two:  The Desert Nomad Camper

Miles: 477
Time: 9 hours
Temperature Range: 73/57
Butt Pain Level: Medium
Roadkill: Badger?

My goal today and for the next two weeks is to find a campground before it gets dark. At 4pm I start looking and by 5pm I should be settled. I had one picked out a little north of Salt Lake City but decided since it will only take about four hours to get to Salt Lake City I’d attempt to go farther and see if I can find something else. I know with time I get better at traveling. It takes a day or two to figure out the system.
 
Salt Lake City, Utah
I stopped at the Whole Foods in Salt Lake City and asked someone on the elevator. He said go to Moab where there are a lot of parks and geological sites. It's is only 4 hours away from Salt Lake City. Salt Lake City was beautiful with clear skies and little if any smog.

At 4pm I got a little nervous. Utah was all desert. Running out of time and the sun is about to go behind the cliffs. There are plenty of signs for RV camping but I don’t want to be surrounded by RV generators and campfires. I should have noted more of the free campsites from my online research but most said they were off unpaved roads. I don’t have a four-wheel drive so I avoided those.

I arrived just outside Moab around 4:30 and the first thing I see is “RV Campark” advertising tourist shops, historical recreations, and a heated pool. It looked like an amusement park. Not what I’m looking for but I stopped anyway. She said they don’t allow anyone to sleep in their car and if I put my tent up I’d have to sleep in it. Why? Hell, I don’t want to put my tent up and I definitely don’t want to sleep in it. She suggested I go to Willow Springs Road which is a road I just passed. It’s a BLM site! I thank her and left. A woman followed me out and told me she camps there all the time. Lots of sites, very quiet, safe, and free.




 
She was right. There are quite a few people here but the sites are about 50 feet apart so even if they do have campfires, I doubt if they will affect me. Very quiet. And free. Hooray! Perfect camping. The road in was a little nerve wracking: deep sand. I was afraid I’d get stuck so I didn’t venture too far into the backcountry. The desert was beautiful with the mountains in the background. The campers here are friendly and wave as they ride by on their mountain bikes, dune buggies or dirt bikes.

In the middle of the night I could hear wind and rain, but it’s pretty warm. I came from the coast which has been dark, rainy and cold. I think it’s the only place in the country not in the 70s right now…I’m so motivated to find a new place to live.

Day Three: Dodging Tumbleweeds

Mileage: 297
Time: 9 hours
Butt Pain Level: Low
Temperature Range: 65/
Roadkill: Tumbleweeds

All night my sinuses burned and were congested. I have no idea why. Desert dust? I was hoping the higher elevation would miraculously cure me, but I guess not. I drove out of the campsite around 8am, as soon as it was light enough to see.

Sunrise in Moab
(Why do spectacular clouds remind me of Evelyn?)
Moab, Utah
Moab is a wonderful little town. There is a paved bike trail all along the highway from the desert into town. I was told it was built to get the mountain bikers back to town safely as so many of them were knocked over by semi-truck draft. Although I was planning to drive right through Moab, I ended up getting information at the Information Center which is filled with good stuff and a very helpful person. Then I walked around, looked at their little health food/coop, used the wi-fi and considered moving there. I was told the townspeople are very health oriented due to all the hiking, biking, rafting, etc., BUT in the old days uranium was mined in them there beautiful hills so there is concern the environment is contaminated. Hmmm…a bit discouraging, but no one seems to be affected by this. I'd like to come back here and spend a week hiking. Really beautiful geological formations.

I headed to Durango. There is a storm rolling in and the warning is wind. High wind. I spent the next couple hours dodging tumbleweeds that were rolling out of the fields and over the highway. At times there were so many it was like a stampede. Some of them were small and my van wheels crushed them, but others were huge and sounded like an explosion when hit. I did what I could to avoid them.
 
Tumbleweed attack!
(Yes, I'm driving while photographing! Bad, bad tourist!)

The Colorado countryside is gorgeous and the highways are in excellent condition.

Road Condition Comparisons:
Washington = excellent/good
Oregon = excellent
Idaho = bad
Utah = mix/mostly bad
Arizona = mix/mostly good
California = exceptionally bad

I stopped for information at the Mesa Verde National Park. The Internet said the campsite was closed, but the woman said it is open but with limited services. They still want $20 a night. Wi-fi doesn’t come with that. I decided I should go find some BLM free camping first and if I couldn't, come back.

I checked with the BLM office in Durango and was given a map with two freebie campgrounds circled. Both on are the way to Silverton, a small town up in the mountains I wanted to see so I headed that way in hopes I could figure out during day light where to find the road to free camping. There are no “free camping” signs with arrows pointing the directions so one really needs to use common sense and pay attention to clues. It’s a challenge. It’s an adventure.

Lower Hermosa is about five miles north of Durango on state highway 550. Take the Lower Hermosa Road exit and head straight up the hill. The road is paved for about two miles then unpaved with cattle grates. The unpaved surface is washboard and a few times the van couldn't get traction and skidded sideways. This is why I don’t like unpaved roads with my non-four-wheeling van, that and it feels like my shocks are coming undone. The whole van shakes and I worry I’ll need to get my tires realigned. Oh well. It’s an adventure. Really beautiful campsite. And FREE…I like that best. There are bear warning signs all over so I might have company tonight.
 
Lower Hermosa campsite

Silverton, Colorado
I drove back down the mountain and headed to Silverton. Beautiful homes along the way and many ski resorts. The highway narrowed to a very thin two lane road with twists and turns. I was fine until the drop off on the right side too close to my van. My palms were sweating so badly I didn’t think I’d be able to hold onto the steering wheel and every time I put on the brakes it felt like I wouldn’t stop. I played my love song lullabies to calm my nerves. I was creeping at 20 mph up and down the mountain and I’m so glad there wasn’t anyone behind me. I’m pretty sure I was nearly there, but I panicked and turned at the first turnout. I figured if I couldn’t drive the road, it didn’t do any good to check it out as a place to live.  The day was sunny, clear and beautiful. I think if it would have started raining I would have panicked even more and froze unable to drive another inch. I can’t imagine people drive this road in the dead of winter with all that snow! There was snow on the side of the road, but the road was clear during my attempt.

Durango, Colorado
I returned and went to Durango to walk around the town. It was about 3pm and the traffic and car exhaust were unbearable. And I couldn’t breathe. At first I couldn’t figure out why walking seemed to exhaust me, then I realized it must be  the elevation. At 6500 feet, Durango is high. The ladies at the Durango information center said they have lived in Durango for over ten years and they still get nose bleeds. I always thought one would get used to the elevation. Other than the breathing issue during exertion, I felt fine.

I wasn’t impressed with the town in general although I liked the old town section and the cute little craftsman cottages in the neighborhood behind it. Lots of stone and brick houses. The real estate prices are too high, higher than my budget will allow. There is definitely too much traffic and car exhaust for my taste. Although it has services and amenities, it’s too big with a serious case of urban sprawl. I’d rather live in a small town with the amenities close by.

It’s supposed to snow tonight!! I’ll be thankful to make it down the mountain in the morning!

Day Four: Wildlife - It's a Zoo Out There!

Mileage: 235
Driving Time: maybe 4 hours
Butt Pain Level: Nothing
Temperature Range: 40s/38
Roadkill: mule deer

I didn’t wake up to snow as expected, or bears – I woke up to wolves. Two big dogish looking wolves.

Last night after I went to sleep I woke up to a loud crash and men running through the woods with flashlights yelling. Unnerving to say the least. I had no idea what was going on, but I always find it’s in my best interest as a lone female to just keep quiet and pretend I’m not awake. No one needs to know a woman is in that van all alone and vulnerable. Let them assume it's two burly men....with firearms and black belts in self-defense.

 
The next morning I’m organizing, dressing, and getting ready to leave and I see two large canines milling about my van. They are watching the guys who were making the racket last night. I could see the men, one was in his sleeping bag on top of the picnic table and the other was sleeping on the ground. They were driving a small white car. These animals looked like wolves only one of them had dog markings. I know a little about wolves, but I didn't recognize this species. I assumed Colorado had a hybrid species I wasn't familiar with. When the wolves left, I could hear the guys talking. I was out of my van brushing my teeth ready to leave and I got curious so I walked over for a visit.
 
“Did you see those animals? Were they wolves?”

The ground-sleeping man who was by this time out of his sleeping bag explained they weren't wolves but hybrids, half wolf/half dog, wolves bred with Malmutes to be exact. Oh great. One of the breeds most likely to attack. He went on to apologize for last night. It seems after they parked the car, it slipped gear and ROLLED BACK INTO THE OTHER CAMPSITE!! I almost camped in that site and changed at the last minute! The crash I heard was the car hitting and pulverizing the picnic table.

The wolf-dogs were cabled to the car, the cable broke when the car rolled, and they ran. Do you blame them? The men couldn’t catch them.  He said the hybrids get loose all the time and he doesn't seem to have any control over them. Idiot. First, because he tied the dogs to the car which is dangerous to the dogs, and second, because he is too stupid to train them to come on command.

As I’m talking to this guy, the other who was still in his sleeping bag on the picnic table is climbing out. Both look homeless rather than campish and I felt my instincts giving me warnings. I kept my distance. I listened to the man whine about how he has no idea what to do with them and they act like wolves. In other words, they are smarter than their owners. I gave him the short version of my lecture on the responsibility of training dogs so they will come on command and the intricacies of owning a wolf. He continued to whine about being over his head and I just wanted to scream Stupid people shouldn't be allowed to own dogs, but hybrids!? Really? I wished him luck and excused myself. I had a feeling I needed to get away from them quickly. Later I reported them to the BLM office. If anything someone should go up there and help catch the dogs and ideally put the stupid dog owners in jail.

I headed to Pagosa Springs. The countryside on the way was beautiful. The highway was littered with mule deer carcasses. The thing about Colorado is all the wildlife and wildlife warnings. Signs like “Wildlife Zone, Double Fines, Oct.1 – Jun-1, 5pm – 7pm” or flashing “Wildlife Detection Warning” which is scary. I'm driving down the highway convinced something is waiting to jump out in front of me. Also, elk signs. This is much worse than where I live. We have a road I call “Suicide Highway” because the deer are always jumping out and causing wrecks. Just last month I saw a deer run across the highway just behind my van and the car behind me hit it. It was horrible.

Pagosa Springs, Colorado
I had read Pagosa Springs has really great air quality. Unfortunately, it looked like a large strip mall. I expected a quaint little country town with a main street. Major disappointment.

Bayfield, Colorado
This little town is just west of Pagosa Springs about twenty miles east of Durango. It was adorable with an old style main street complete with wild west style buildings, little homes, bigger homes on the hill, more modern facilities down the road. Perfect. I looked at real estate prices. Not so perfect. Real estate is still too high even out in the middle of nowhere. Three acres for $99K.

 
 
On the way back to Durango I discovered Nature’s Oasis, a health food grocery store. Noosa Yogurt made in Colorado. Oh, yum. I found this yogurt in Arizona and California, too. Having an adequate health food source only fifteen minutes away makes Bayfield perfect...if it wasn't for the real estate prices.

Drove to Mesa Verde through a blizzard and took the Cliff Palace tour in a hail storm. I’ve always wanted to see these ruins, but always thought they were in New Mexico. Thank you, Urfa, for the head's up. Saw a tarantula there. So cute and creepy all at the same time.
 
 








Then I went to the Spruce Tree House which is on another cliff:



 
Driving that road down the mountain in the hail and fog was not fun. I played my love song lullabies and hummed along to calm my nerves.

One of the rangers at the park told me about a BLM campsite nearby. Just past Mancos, turn left for Echo Basin. At three miles in, look for the posted camping rules and camp anywhere. Quiet, secluded, non-toxic and beautiful. I got there early, typed, read my book, looked at my maps and with little else to do, went to bed early. I laid there for hours thinking, unable to sleep.
 


 

Day Five: The Longest Night of My Life

Time: 12 hours
Butt Pain Level: Low
Temperature: 50/26
Road Kill: Horses

After laying awake for hours and finally falling asleep, I awoke around midnight thinking it was dawn because everything was so light. SNOW. Two to four inches and cold! Not just cold, but frozen solid to the ground, the trees and my van. I couldn’t get back to sleep worrying about how I was going to get off the mountain. If it started snowing again with the warmer morning temperatures, I'd be stuck.
 
 
I started doing the Secret right away:

“I am so grateful for traction!”

“I am so grateful for clear roads!”

“I’m so thankful I’ll be in Arizona tomorrow, or rather, today later on!”
 
Yep, driving and photographing while negotiating snow and ice.
Am I insane?
 
It worked! My tires gripped the ice on the road, the highway was clear, and eventually that day I ended up in Arizona. Once I made it to the highway in the dark, I headed to Cortez eighteen miles away, found a Denny’s that had wi-fi, ate scrambled egg, thanked the powers-that-be I didn’t create any roadkill, and waited for dawn.

Arizona
I left Cortez around 7:30am for Arizona eager to find sun and maybe warmer weather.
 
I stopped at Four Corners to stand at the intersection of four states.
 
 
Not sure it was worth the $3.00 for the admission. All around the monument were booths for Navajo artists, maybe 100 in total. On this cold, fall day, there were only 5 people with their merchandise. Off season. I really need to stop doing tourists attractions during off-season. It’s not worth it.

The scenery on the Navajo Reservation is gorgeous. I'm pretty sure you need to be Native American and especially Navajo to live there.
 



In some areas the dirt is a bright red/pink with bright green plants. Outstanding. The roads were beautiful, lacking traffic, flat and begging for a bike ride.
 
Clouds for Evelyn
 
The great thing about desert driving is you can see ten miles of road in front of you straight through the flat landscape. I felt tears welling. I felt like I had arrived home. Only one other time in my life I felt like this and it was when I moved to Arizona. I had high hopes for Snowflake.
 


Navajo horses were roaming freely on the side of the road. One was in the other lane watching me approach. I slowed to a crawl so afraid it would jump in front of the van. I couldn't imagine hitting a horse with my car. I honked trying to get it to move off the road. It just stared at me. As soon as I past, it trotted across the road and galloped into the desert. So weird. This wasn’t the only one as I encountered many horses wandering freely on the side of the road as well as one huge pig and a lone cow. Strange. Single cows all alone with no cow friends in sight always upsets me. That's just wrong. Did his cow friends kick him out of the club? Is he sick? Is he lost or bewildered? It's wrong.
 
I was feeling very positive until I reached I-40. Big black clouds hung over the freeway. They opened up dumping rain and snow on the very crowded roadway and the strong winds made all that water go sideways. Scary.  It was very cold. (No, I didn't take photos while driving this time. I could barely keep the van from blowing off the road. Not sure why that would stop me.)
 
On to Snowflake...

Saturday, October 26, 2013

"The Smell of Money"


Movies use that line to describe someone who is ambitious. I hate the smell of money. I think it's the inks that are used to print it and I'm pretty sure they offgas for decades. Get paper money really close to your nose (not advisable) and one can detect the lingering smell of stale cigarette smoke or the stench of sweaty palms. Just imagine where that money might have been? In the hands of people who don't wash their hands after they use the restroom, in the pants pocket of a dirty homeless person who urinates on himself, dropped on the floor of a gas station bathroom, between the breasts of a stripper or down the pants of a male stripper. Good Lord! Money is nice to spend, but to handle it? It grosses me out. I prefer the line "Money is Evil."

Yesterday I ran errands most of the day going in and out of stores. I rarely have a problem, but I know where to shop, which cashiers to avoid, and I pretty much avoid all shoppers as I skirt the edges of the store and move quickly. I have the system memorized and well-rehearsed. 

When I arrived home I looked in my coin purse to see what was left. Damage assessment. Whew! Someone gave me a handful of money drenched in perfume. It was in a tight little wad so it came from one place and it must have happened so quickly I didn't notice it at the time. Grab my change, thank the cashier, stuff it in the coin purse, shove it in my purse, leave. Transaction is done. It's automatic. I rarely take the time to smell the money at the check stand.

STINK! I almost shoved it back into the purse to get it away from my air space, but that would continue to contaminate everything. I grabbed a plastic baggie from my drawer and sealed it in. I needed to get rid of it. I drove to the gas station and gave it to the attendant.

"I don't know how much is in there, but I'd like to get some gas." I smiled. "It stinks," I said as I stepped back as if I thought it would explode. He opened it and counted $17.00. Hmmm...that must have been the grocery store where I bought the batteries. "Tena" was the checker's name. I'll need to remember that.

It never ceases to amaze me how a chemically sensitive person can be poisoned. It can come out of left field just when you let your guard down.

I've never liked the smell of money anyway.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Snowflake, or Bust

Snowflake, here I come! Well, I hope. As soon as I realized I might have some time to travel, my van started acting up so it has spent nearly all this last week in the shop getting fixed and checked to be travel-ready.

Snowflake of My Dreams
(Mermaids hiding in the water.)
 
 
I plan to drive through Oregon, California and across to Arizona for those of you who want to stalk me. I'm hoping to find some off-season cheap or free camping. California is still in the 80s with nights in the 60s, but Snowflake is in the 70s with the nights dipping into the 20s. Yes, that's not a typo: the TWENTIES! Colder than my refrigerator. It's going to be an uncomfortable camping experience so I'm not really sure how long I'll last. I'll probably high-tail it back to California and stay warm.

I found a bunny-sitter for Peter, but that won't stop me from worrying about him.

Snowflake Reality
(Snakes hiding in the tumbleweeds.)
The stars are all aligned and it's time for some action. I'm so tired of just waiting for something to happen, simmering and stagnant. UGH! Either Snowflake will totally turn me off (aside from all the negatives on my already lengthy "con" list) or I'll find a solution. I'll settle for a suitable rental so I can try the area out before making any permanent commitments. Whatever happens at least I can stop wondering and move forward.

Wish me luck!

UPDATE: For my stalkers...it's pre-dawn the day of my departure and I've changed my route! I haven't been getting good feedback from an online friend who is currently visiting Snowflake. It sounds like hell! I decided to check out southern Colorado on the way there so I've changed my route to Idaho, Utah, Colorado, Snowflake. I'll return via California and Oregon so if Snowflake is a real bust, I can leave early and spend extra time looking in these areas.

Friday, October 18, 2013

Heating Options (Update)

I've contacted many people over the last two weeks trying to figure out what I can do about my lack of healthy heat. It's a slow process trying to get people to come to the edge of civilization for estimates or evaluations. Some refuse to come as it's too far away (darn). Some don't show at all nor do they return my calls/emails (unprofessional). Some tell me there is nothing they can do since I can't smell the problem and the furnace is working fine (idiots). Some have treated me like I'm stupid (morons). Some have come for appointments right on time AND fragrance-free (awesome). It makes me want to give them money just for showing up. While I gather information, I've been using one small radiator heater located in a sectioned off 10 x 10 space surrounding my desk and computer. The concentrated heat and lack of air give me headaches yet the lack of consistent air quality and dead, recirculated flow keeps my fingers and toes freezing. So weird. The outside temperatures haven't dropped too low, but they will. I need to find a solution, yet be smart about it.

Options:

Portable Oil-Filled Radiator Heaters  This is what I'm using now. It's definitely heating the small space it's in, but I think I'd need at least five to heat the whole downstairs. They don't have built-in fans to circulate the warmth so they aren't very efficient. I tried this a few years ago for one month as I was trying to figure out how to not use my heating system then and my bills skyrocketed. I know it's not a permanent solution.

Fireplaces or Wood-Burning Stoves  I think these are great for emergencies or power outages, but my lungs can't handle the smoke. I have no desire to chop and haul wood daily either. My house used to have a fireplace years ago, but the previous owners removed it because it was such a hassle to maintain. A wood-burning stove or fireplace insert can run anywhere from $300 to $8,000 or more. My neighbor has the $8,000 model. She's an idiot. Spewing smoke into the already polluted air is not very responsible and cutting trees for firewood uses valuable resources unnecessarily. Another option are pellet stoves, but those offgas toxic fumes if they are not maintained regularly.

Radiant Heat  This is the type of heat that is supposedly the best for chemically sensitive people. It uses heated water in pipes so there are no fans blowing dust or toxic materials and filters don't need to be changed constantly. No risk of burnt dust which is toxic to many. It's usually under the floor, although old-style is above ground in cast-iron radiators. These are still very popular in Europe. Old-style also runs off gas or water heaters and is not as cost effective as the newer models which run off natural gas or oil. For new construction, this is a great option. For old houses, forget it. I've been told the cost to install it in a old house is astronomical.

Heat Pump/Furnace  With this option, I'd have to replace what I have with a brand new system or repair parts of it to get rid of the cheap and toxic fiberglass duct board. I can't see doing this as I doubt if there would be anyway to avoid formaldehyde, plastics, fiberglass insulation, or other toxic materials that are used. I'd still have the forced air blowing dust around and it's expensive at around $2,000 to $3,500 depending on how much replacement I'd need.

Ductless Heat Pump  I have no idea why I never heard of this years ago when I was researching for a brand new central heating system. It's like a high-powered wall heater/air conditioner that runs on a heat pump from the outside. No ducts. No under-the-house-personal hell. One heater unit can heat the whole house and is about 40 - 50 % more efficient than a regular heat pump, or so all the salespeople and sales ads say. Unfortunately, installation is incredibly expensive to the tune of $3800.00 for just one heater unit. This is not an expense that thrills me since I want to sell the house in the next few years.

Wall Heaters   I got a quote for either one big wall heater or two small ones for two different rooms: $471 and $538, respectively. People love them and I've heard they are very cost effective. Wall heaters use fans to circulate the air which makes them a little more efficient than a radiator oil-filled heater. I have them upstairs in my bedrooms so I know they work fine. I think my heating bills would go up, but more importantly, I really don't want to be cutting open the walls and adding heaters.

Infrared Portable Heaters  When my two elderly neighbors told me they had space heaters I envisioned the radiator-style and wondered how they could ever afford it. As I mentioned above, I know these expend a lot of energy and I worried how much more their bills are than mine. Finally one day I got the nerve to ask. I know it's rude to ask people about finances, but I couldn't help myself and both their houses are about the same year and size as mine. I needed to know! Both replaced their oil furnaces with these little infrared portable electric heaters although they do also have wall heaters that are used on occasion. Their electric bills are a little more than mine during the winter, but not that much. They invited me over to have a look. One of my neighbors had three of them on her main floor and her house was at least 80 degrees! BUT the heaters were awesome. EdenPure is the brand.Very quiet and efficient. They highly recommended them so I started researching. Most cost about $400. Our local hardware store carries them with $60 tacked onto the online price just for the fun of it (UGH!) and several of the store employees use them. One of those employees is a friend of mine and offered to loan me his for a few days to try it out:

 
Toasty! I have it on the lowest setting and have had to turn it off every now and then because it is so efficient. Reviews online are about 50% love them, 50% hate them. I'm not sure if there is a pattern, but everyone I know doesn't run them on high and it makes me wonder if the naysayers do? Some claim it doesn't heat a small room, but confess they have old-style windows and not very good insulation. Some claim if it breaks down, sending it back to the company for repairs is a nightmare, but anyone I've spoken to who has had problems (the bulbs burn out after about a year and need to be replaced) say it was easy, fast and painless. There is a 5-year warranty on the larger unit. I really like that if I get one I can take it with me when I move so it's not money I will lose when I sell the house. And, it's made in America! How rare is that?

I wonder how much this will affect my electric bills? Will this little unit use less energy than my whole central heating system? My two elderly neighbors' bills are a little higher than mine but they also use multiple heaters plus their wall heaters. Others have said it saves them money especially if they are using a furnace as this little unit keeps the inside temperature stable so the furnace doesn't kick on as often.

Time will tell. I'll update this post when I discover more.

Monday, October 14, 2013

Tolerable Laundry Detergent!

I've been noticing my Planet Ultra Dishwashing Liquid, the All-Purpose Miracle Soap sometimes smells strongly on clothing. This is not good. It's only when I hand wash a sweater or something thick. I'm probably not rinsing the soap out adequately, no matter how hard I try, no matter how many times I rinse. Although it works fine in the laundry, it's not really meant to be used that way so even a laundry load never really rinses well and I often have to wash twice to get the soap residue off the fabric.

A few weeks ago I was shopping the house cleaning aisle at my local co-op and thought I should sample the bulk, fragrance- and chemical-free laundry detergent they have for sale. I sniff tested it before pouring and it was fine. I tried it on several loads of laundry and even washed my toilet with it. Soap must be multi-purpose to be justifiable. It doesn't smell nor does it bother me! I re-washed all my sweaters. And it's cheaper than Planet by about half price!

Hooray!

Saturday, October 12, 2013

"PAINT ME TURQUOISE!"

I couldn't wait to strip and paint my new bed and decided it's not a good winter project since it would have to be done out in the garage during cold, wet weather. I decided to take advantage of the few remaining days of sunny autumn days to get it done although I'm pretty much past my toxic load limit.

I was tormented over the color choice. White would be neutral and safe, match all the other bed frames, match any room color, match any linens, and I could use low VOC paint.

1930s Maple Twin with Egg Posts

Pointy Post Bed, Full-Size
(I have no idea what year. It was free.)

The problem with white is I'd have to buy another gallon of expensive, toxic paint and I'm trying to get rid of my paint supply so I'm not tempted to do more painting projects. White also accentuates every surface problem. Shiny white really makes them glare. This bed is really dinged up and no matter how I try to fill in cracks or sand surface problems, I'm not good at making things look perfect.

 
Turquoise would match one color in the rug of my blue room and I had a whole bunch of left over turquoise from the pantry project. I wasn't thrilled about buying another gallon of paint just to paint this bed frame, but that turquoise isn't low VOC which means the bed may have to stay out in the garage for the next six months to offgas. Turquoise also wouldn't match the other beds, but should it? Maybe I should be daring?

 
Turquoise won. When the time came the bed screamed, "PAINT ME TURQUOISE!" I couldn't control myself. I planned to paint a tiny obscure sample to see what it looked like and I just kept painting. It was my alter ego Yatna practicing being BRAVE. I did, however, make it a shade lighter than the pantry thinking it would match the rug. 

Much to my dismay, I didn't like the turquoise. Damn. It didn't match the rug like I thought it would as the rug's turquoise is a greenish-tinted turquoise. Jeez. I didn't even like it with the blue. My multiple personalities aren't getting along. So I did what any chemically sensitive person who is at her toxic limit would do...I took another few days and repainted it toxic white. I used the left over floor paint which is strong, but smelly. This is called sado-masochism. Or stupidity. Or frugality. Or maybe just a serious case of paint addiction.

Late 1800s Three-Quarter Spool Bed

But it looks better and matches the trim, floor and all the other beds. Once I find some slats and add the mattress, the blue bedspread will help it match the rug. I think it looks bigger white.

The rainy season has started so I hesitate to leave it out in the garage where it is too damp. I brought it into the house where it is smelling up the guest bedroom. Windows open, doors closed. I'll give it about nine months to offgas and in the meantime look for free slats to hold up the mattress.

I love my mini-bed collection.


Friday, October 11, 2013

Toxic Heating (Update)


Duct Man came and had a looked. He was quite disappointed. As you recall, he started moaning when I told him about Santy Claws so he expected and hoped for the worst. I'm sure a messed up crawlspace is a duct repair person's ultimate dream. However, Santy Claws was a very tidy guest and did no damage at all! Well, excluding the bits of opossum shit here and there. Duct Man was concerned with the old-style duct walls used to cage the air return vents. They are made with fiberglass and over time the surface will disintegrate. Heating systems with duct walls can't be cleaned because they will loosen the fiberglass fibers creating a [more] toxic breathing situation. He neither replaces or cleans ducts nor duct walls so I could see he was a little disappointed more of it wasn't falling apart so he could repair something.

I guess I should be happy he doesn't need to repair and charge me a lot to do what he would do, but this doesn't offer a solution to my problem. At the very least, I really wanted to have the system cleaned.

So again I contacted the heating company that recommended Duct Man and asked their advice. As I waited to hear back I decided I needed some guilty pleasure treats to get me through the trauma of it all so I drove to the nearest town. On the drive back home I saw the heating company's office! I decided to pay them a personal visit. The office was non-smelly which is always a good sign. My heating guy is GORGEOUS! :) Really, truly gorgeous. And charming. And knowledgeable. I've made an appointment for an inspection for Monday to find out how expensive this could be.


I'm personal hygiene-impaired...
Problem with any solution at this point is it might not rectify the problem. I still can't figure out why I am so sick this year and not so much previous years. I did accompany Duct Man under the house donning my homemade bio-hazard suit with added mechanic-style jumpsuit. Crawling through opossum shit was not fun, but I felt adequately protected. (Good Lord, the things I do as a home owner!) Am I reacting just to the opossum shit deposits from last Christmas? Maybe, but I can't imagine or I would have been feeling poorly last winter and spring. The fiberglass has also been there for as long as I've lived here. It's a mystery, as health often is.

The cayenne pepper wasn't too bad as it's so old now. I'll have to re-apply when all this is over.

Again, I may just opt for no centralized heat and use only space heaters until I can move, but I think it'll be a very cold winter...or two!