My self-imposed
exile and isolation on the edge of civilization has been difficult, but the
main reason I was missing city life is the forfeiture of entertainment venues I
had come to enjoy. Giving up toxic
activities was a requirement and moving away also helped removed the
temptation. Initially, I resented having to deny myself these simple pleasures so many take for granted and I wondered if the
improvement in health was worth sacrificing my soul. I began searching for non-toxic or less toxic entertainment
options that would fulfill my need for fun so I wouldn't feel like such a
martyr.
Most of my
favorite activities involved people and anytime there are large numbers
gathering for any reason, there is always stink. It doesn't matter how many
times you ask people to be fragrance-free or whatever effort you make to communicate
the need for unscented products, the more people involved, the more risk. At
least one person will not understand what fragrance-free means and all it takes
is one person to pollute the shared air.
After years
of failed group entertainment experimentation, I've learned to enjoy my own
company. The stress and frustration was too exhausting. Making the adjustment
from being a social butterfly to an antisocial recluse took about two years and
during that period I thought I'd go stir crazy! After a while it was just easier
to be alone or with one other person who I could trust to be unscented and safe.
There are times I still wish I could participate in group events, but for the
most part, I prefer the solitude. I like the quiet, lack of drama and lack of
stress. Mix chemical sensitivity with people and there is always drama and
stress!
Entertainment and activities I can't do anymore:
parties
dinner parties
fancy restaurants
concerts
nightclubs
bars
theater
air travel
girl shopping
city walking
art
family gatherings
holiday dinners
reunions
weddings
conferences
outdoor activities
restaurants
art
cooking/baking
sewing
gardening
museums
computer fun
DVDs
reading
road trips
I'll discuss some of the larger entertainment categories in the next few posts. As usual, every person with MCS has a different story to tell with a variety of experiences and different levels of sensitivities. There are activities I can enjoy that won't be possible for others, and there are things I like to do that others wouldn't consider fun at all!
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